my feeling

I’m trying to smile brightly but I don’t like it!!

I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

I’m trying to sing but no one is listening!

Why am I so ugly???

What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

I’m getting angry again,

why can’t I ever be perfect???

I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror

Don’t look at me!

I hate this feeling right now

I want to hide away somewhere!! I want to escape!!

This world is full of lies!!

I think I’m ugly, and nobody wants to love me

Just like her, I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face telling me I’m pretty!!

Don’t lie to my face cause I know I'm ugly!!

Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily!!

My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you

Don’t force me to talk!

I’m not right for you!

The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me

Don’t come closer!!

I don’t even want your concern!!

I want to leave away to somewhere

I want to shout out

This world is full of lies!!!!

There is no such thing as warmth!!

There is no one by my side!!

I’m all alone

I’m always alone

For Niall James Horan

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too much to count,
filling my room with love
they wipe away the tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much.. they caressing my wound gently
embracing me to sleep

though it’s too hard for my legs to walk,
though my tears blur my vision,
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I will never get

Even though our happy times were short,
I’ll keep it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars

forever

My dream is coming, though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding.. it comes down to my shoulder
cant stop being so sad.. it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though it’s too hard for my legs to walk,
though my tears blur my vision,
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I will never get

Even though our happy times were short,
I’ll keep it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars

Forever…